Joy: Independence

The weekends I go up north, to an empty home, might be my favorite. Its quiet, I can do what I want, when I want, and I can’t hear my neighbors, or traffic, other than the occasional train. It could be lonely.

I could be disappointed that there isn’t someone to share meals with but the time is what I make it. I typically have at least one event planned if I’m coming up for the weekend. Occasionally I’ll schedule two things in one day, but with needing to complete homework, I try not to over schedule.

Saturday afternoon I debated what to do. I knew homework needed to be done, but the weather was begging for some patio/brewery time. I wasn’t able to snag an outdoor seat at Big Axe Brewing in Nisswa, but I was able to get a table near the window. I completed half of my homework, I enjoyed some delicious beer. The other half of the homework will be completed this morning.

As I sat studying and sipping, I tried to block out the noise of friends chatting, families visiting, and workers getting used to the crowds. I felt moments of loneliness, but they were brief. I’m lucky to be able to do pretty much what I want, when I want. I hope it won’t always be this way. I would like a partner to share life with, and build a life with. But until then, I’m not going to shut myself in a house.

I’m going to go out, have fun, even if fun looks like homework and a beer. The definition of fun will hopefully change over the years. And what is fun now may not be fun in the future, but that is okay. I’ll find joy either way.

What is fun for you?

 

2 thoughts on “Joy: Independence

  1. I can so relate to how you are feeling. I did a lot of stuff on my own, including taking 2 trips to Paris. Some people said, ‘wouldn’t you rather wait and do that when you have a partner to share it with?’ but I didn’t want to hold off on doing things I wanted to do because who knows when you will meet the person for you. I think going to a brewery to do homework is the perfect combination. You are out and about and not cooped up, and you have something delicious to eat/drink while working on homework!

    • Great point Lisa! I’m not quite at the trip to Paris level of investment yet, but I am doing a few days in Duluth at the end of the month!

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