48: Chipping Away

I am a slow and steady person. Unless we’re talking about jumping to conclusions. In which case, I go to the worst case scenario immediately, and then talk myself back into a rational world.

Everyone is all about that “big game” that’s in town. And I do wish I had signed up to volunteer. But I wasn’t in the right place to commit at the time, and I’m still not really there. Each week is hard. I get myself out of bed, to the gym, to work, to making meals, to seeing friends/family. None of it is easy. There are so many things I want to be different, but I know they can’t all change immediately.

So right now I just chip away each day. Doing the best I can with what I have. Some days that means not doing the dishes, or skipping the gym, or cheating on my challenge and joining my coworkers in a potluck.

Minnesota breeds some tough people, hopefully I can be tough enough to get through these road blocks and eventually find what I’m looking for.

4 thoughts on “48: Chipping Away

  1. It sounds like you’re in a tough spot right now. I’m sorry about that. MN does breed toughness, but it also breeds a mentality that we can do it all on our own. If you really feel yourself struggling and that it is more than a funk, I hope you’ll reach out to family, friends, or a professional who can help you. (Maybe you already have. . . just don’t want you to struggle alone.)

    • Thanks friend! I am certainly honest with people about how i feel, but part of the struggle is being sick of hearing “it will work out, the right job/person will come along.” I have reached out to various professionals, but none of quite been the right fit. So hopefully my efforts will start to pay off.

  2. This is a time of year when a lot of us are in the same mindset as you – we are just kind of getting through the days. The cold, dark winter months are hard! And then if there is something in your life that you aren’t happy with, it makes it even harder. Hopefully things shift this year and you get to the point where you don’t feel like you are just plodding through the days (but I’ve been in your shoes so know what it feels like to feel the way you do). I’m honestly just kind of chipping away at the days now, too. I’m so ready to be done with pregnancy since it’s been a tough one but i keep reminding myself i just need to make it through a little more than 3 more weeks.

    • less than a month? its crazy how it feels like you have all this time waiting for baby, and now it is coming towards the final countdown!! and thank you for the kind words, it helps to know others have been in similar situations and things will eventually change.

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